The Dementors

Should people have to like the fear of failure? Unless you're unlikely to succeed. Fear, Forever, Fight, Finish, Fucked up, every F word has feeling of finding yourself ! Fearful dark thoughts and when it hits your mind trust me you are a screwed up social animal.

This word caused enough trouble in my mind today, fear of falling, fear of future, fear of facing the demons or I should say 'Boggart', but the spell 'Riddiculus' won't work here, this is the real world that sucks!

Don't feel shameful to be afraid. But what if one cannot be proud enough to fight against her own demons? I have problem with everything now,my mind is fucked up totally, why can't I focus?

Fear,

Focus,

Fall,

Fights,

Finish the line,

Find the line,

Follow the dreams,

Fool yourself,

Every F word is a fantasy that leads me to the dark side of my mind, but does my heart think the same?

Is it just fear that makes its home in my mind or it also gets viral in my heart?

Do I have weak heart?

But if I don't care about people then how can I have a weak heart ?

I'm mature, I should not think like this and being mature means understanding that you have the power not to be affected by any judgment, including my own judgment in difficult times. 

Is it just my thinking or is this really happening?

I'm talking to myself, but do I really exist at this moment or I just created my replica? Imaginary me?

Is it just reciprocating into me ?

What have I seen this morning or will see in future?

Are this English seasons getting high on my mind?

I have questions and I don't want the answers because these are made by me, for me, I know the answers just for now I don't wanna know!!

Like thought came in my mind  that I can't hold myself when I'm lonely but I never feel lonely!!

I'm with my friends/family all the time.

Then why I think about myself that's not me actually !!

Life is much easier when I am asleep but why these dreams don't let me sleep?

Is it just I'm writing for some drastic situation, but its not happening,damn its imaginary !!

Dreams are fine !!

I'm making them bigger

A lot bigger!

I wanna look into people and wanna find the worst of them, wanna see their demons. But am I really fighting with my own ?

We all have some rigidness towards fear, afraid of class presentation , afraid of raising high volume even if I'm alone in the house, afraid to ask a girl out, afraid to go to the school, afraid to go out for dinner with family, or to go out anywhere with anyone, why I'm so afraid of being afraid ?

This is not fear,this is just my thinking, my conversation to myself !!

So did I reach to any conclusion ?

Am I still thinking that fear has power to end the happiness ?

In a sense may be, or may be not!

Am I still afraid of being afraid?

How could I tell you about my fearful feelings where you can have your own, may be fearless!

What I know after getting the shit out of my mind is that fear is always there about what we think and how we think ! We can always have alternatives to frighten ourselves, from nowhere! Stop being a fearful dumb ass and start thinking about the alibi to use against your fear, against your demons ! Don't let your fear win , let it excite you to the level of Hell ! Stop being an asshole and start performing  your fearless magical performance around the world because people need someone who makes them happy and save them from Fucking Fear !

Today is a fearful day but tomorrow will be fearless!

                                                                                              -Kemil Ghoghari 

(edited by Pooja Mehta (https://easy2codeblog.wordpress.com) )